Get thee behind me Satan..(btw dont look at my ass while you are back there!!) *smh*

Ok I promise to name my first pet Fendi if someone somewhere will make this bag a reality for me. Yes this is a Fendi tote, dont you love how unassuming it is? Understated fashion people...UNDERSTATED!!! Now if you feel like losing a kidney on my behalf to get this bag, it is "only" $2390 at Saks...*cough*...yes that money can feed a whole village somewhere so I will just dream yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Ok so I was really counting on something happening today, I prayed prayed and prayed and didn't sleep a wink waiting for the confirmation...well it didn't happen. GRRRRRRRR!! Normally this would be where I turn off everything and just stay in bed (or go to the mall and waste money I don't have). But not today...I am going to do everything I would usually do and not let this beat me down :)...ok so todays topic is a fun one, I am going to share with you 5 blogs/fashion websites that I have fallen in love with. They are placed not in any particular order of importance...check them out and see if you fall in love too...:)

1. Outnet.com

Says it is the world's most fashionable fashion outlet devoted to selling discounted designer womenswear and accessories. I like this site cause I am able to go see what "designers" are putting out and then find those trends before others jump on the fads :)...always puts you ahead of the fashion crowd.

2. Shefinds.com

I love this website because it usually puts together a boatload of fashion resources that I can use. Like what the best make up is, best sun screen, where to get cheaper options of a look etc. you really could spend all day on this site.

3. Ruelala.com

I love ruelala cause sometimes they have some really awesome designers for really cheap...you know the BCBG skirt I have been lusting after? Well its $128 (i think normally), found on Ruelala for $58 bucks...(still didnt buy it though...dude I am unemployed is that skirt going to feed me?...maybe when I start working)...oh and they have La perla at absolutely unbelievable prices...so sign up and check out the boutiques.

4. Smartbargains.com

When it is good at Smart bargains it is really good, when its not, its just like a department store (and we know how I dislike department store prices). Sign up though you get emails everyday with "special" deals. Like I said when it is good it is really good...I think I have gotten designer shoes for $10.00 there before :)

and last but not least

5. Dealigg.com

One of my main "go to" sites. Not necessarily only fashion related has the info on steals and deals all over the web. :)

Hopefully this is will motivate you to go waste some money :)...YAY!!!!

The grass is greener on the other side…unless you are an anorexic bovine then you don't care…

So I think I am going to stop the shiny and go for studs now...they look so hot!!!...This is a def. double duty shoe...you look hot and if someone pisses you off it can be a weapon (no I am not advocating violence just a little tap) :)...Well if you can afford this (cause I cant), its the Sam Edelman Lorissa pump its "only" $200 at Bloomingdales...

Onto the next topic...this week my demons have really been working overtime and just haunting the hell OUT of me…or should I say the heaven since they are from hell and want to haunt the hell INTO me? Ahhh see what I mean? Ramblings of a soon to be psycho “but well dressed” me!..ugh. Anyways so what is my beef this week…same old same old…cant find a job…seem to only attract perverts or old men blah blah blah. And then to top it all off…find out that my ex friend’s boyfriend is a complete hunk…while I have umm…SQUAT!! I don’t know about you but pain is pain when someone is an ex- anything (yeah yeah you wish them the best and all) but come on we both know you secretly wish a piano or an organ ....ok ok maybe just a violin will come from heaven once in awhile and hit them (not too often though). But yeah I wish I had been falsely accused of trying to steal this man I would have yelled guilty (even without being guilty). *sigh*

It is insanity to do the same thing, the same way, over and over and expect a different results...story of my life or at least my dating life. Here is the cycle: Find a guy, (he must be physically attractive; at least to me don’t care much what anyone else thinks *sue me*), get with guy, get tired of guy cause hes only about the physical (wait for it) get over guy and meet new guy and rinse and repeat! And you know the funny part of all this? Usually I am the one who pushes a conversation or a meeting to the sexual/physical realm. Here is my reasoning…if I push it to the sexual and he indulges me then obvs he is not for me (case of I was jumping off a cliff would you do it too?). Don’t get me wrong I accept that as humans we are all sexual beings but there is a time and place for everything. Yes Francis would say and I quote..."you know you are crazy right?"...probably...

I honestly don't know why I keep repeating this cycle, I think in my head the first guy to tell me to stop and just be myself will be the true guy for me? Does that make sense? I hope so cause I felt crazy writing it. :)...and the smart person will say, ok why are you putting it on the guy, why dont you start out simply not condoning that type of behavior in the first place? *Good question* that I honestly do not have an answer for. Well i do but the answer is something I would not expect someone of my upbringing, education, religion etc. to give...but here it goes *before I go hide under a table somewhere*..."because I want them to like meeeeeeeeee"...again my thinking is that ok we get the dirty talk in but then I am able to infuse in some of me and they get to know the real me as well...*did you just give me a side eye and a child please* cause i truly deserved it lol...in all the time I have used this not once has it worked....dirty talk stays dirty till one of us gets bored...

So here is what is going to happen this time...this whole rinse and repeat cycle thing is going to stop. Its time to separate the men from the sheep with a new approach. Not exactly sure what this new approach will be but knowing me I will probably write about the results on here in the near future and then I can tweak the method until I find one that really works. I guess instead of thinking about talking about the real me for fear of being dropped I will focus on truly giving the true me and if someone doesnt like it they can eat dirt...*this is going to be hard to do*...stay tuned...

Copy, Paste, Rinse, Repeat...

I need these shoes in my life...so versatile...well versatile for where I live since I never see any snow :)...yummy...

Ok so since I could not figure out how to import my live space blog to this blog I picked the few blog posts I thought were still relevant and added them, so I didn't write everything, I just copied and pasted it. I honestly have nothing useful to write about today, I am sure I could think something up but I just got the beginnings of a migrane and I am not sure I want to be up when it hits fully so going to take some medication and peace out...I will leave with quote by Marianne Williamson that I think is more than relevant for anything anyone might be going through...enjoy :)

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are younot to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Have a Baby by me Baby!!!! - Windows Live

Ok so I am writing today with only ONE side of my face fully functioning, since the left side of my face or more specifically my left eye area, has just decided to “eff” effort and quit on me. (CRY for me ARGENTINA!!!) I have had a painful headache for a few months, getting progressively worse and now I am “blessed or cursed” depends on howyou want to look at it, with a sensation of a nail piercing that particular eye ball (not fun at all TRUST ME!)

Anyways I didn’t come to whine about my eye (or maybe I should)…lol anyways on we go…I was coming to work today when one of my new fav songs came on, “Have a baby by me baby Be a MILLIONAIRE”. I think this song must be the number one song featured on every Gold digger’s ring tone.(I can’t even lie I bump to it every time it comes on…wait Am I insinuating that I am a Gold Digger?) Ugh!!!!...Lol NEVER THAT!!!! Anyways that song gave me the perfect thing to talk/write about today.

Women who have babies with supposedly “rich” or “successful” men JUST for the “check”. Again the disclaimer: If you “happen” to have a rich baby daddy that’s YOUR problem, this is not an attack on you,

I am TALKING/WRITING about women who purposefully latch onto a rich man to have a kid so they “will be/might be” set for the rest of their lives. If you don’t believe me go listen to Kanye “Gold Digger” Sheesh!!! ANYfreakingWAY back to the topic… Have a baby by me Baby, Be a Millionaire is a very stupid move and here are my reasons why. Ok so you go through the nine months of pain, misery, fat, bloating yadda yadda to have a beautiful child (healthy, we pray). Now, if you got with the guy purely for that reason …then what?? Your child usually has no interaction with their father.

FAIL POINT 1!!!...Every child needs to interact with BOTH parents and that is why God in his infinite wisdom gave us TWO parents and not just one!!! Yes there are those unfortunate situations where a father CANNOT be a child’s life, we all know such situations but I posit that this is VERY different from making a choice to have a child knowing fully well that the father will choose not to be in that child’s life. That is not only callous but it has repercussions that affect you and the child way beyond that one stupid situation. Do you really want to bring a child into this world not giving them the best advantage possible? And if you do maybe we should revoke your birthing rights!!!!

Child support payments. Child support payments if I have read about them correctly (I must be a sad soul having nothing better to do with my time than investigate Child support payments right? So Sad!!) lol But yeah back to child support payments, now if I got this right then that is based on the income of the father right? So the more loot for him, the more you can wrangle out of him. Let’s then say after all your hard work said “successful” “wealthy” person loses their JOB or their LIFE!!! FAIL POINT 2!!! Whomp whomp!!! Now the sexy legal part comes into play. If the man has made no provisions for you and that child and was not fiscally sound Guess what…YOUR ASS might have to raise the baby ON YOUR OWN!!!...So we have progressed from being a broke single woman to being a broke single woman with a kid! (P.S. It costs about 187,408 to raise a child on an income of less than 38,000.00)

What’s Love got to do with it? FAIL POINT 3!!! Love has EVERYTHING to do with it. The first thing love has to do with concerns your relationship with the child.Do you really want to commit to having another human being you are going to be responsible for (FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE AND THEIRS) that you might not love because of the way you conceived him or her? Yeah best case scenario you see the child and you fall in love with them for who they are regardless of who their father is, but be realistic sometimes you see the child and he/she just reminds you of everything you have failed to do in life and you become resentful of both the child and your situation, when the child really didn’t beg you to bring him/her into the world.

The second thing love has to do with concerns your relationship with yourself (the love you choose to have showered on you.) Do you honestly want to have a child alone, those nights of cravings, when you want someone to just rub your feet, be in the hospital with you yadda yadda yadda DON’T YOU WANT THAT FOR YOURSELF?? Don’t you want you and your significant other to embrace having an extension of both of you come into this world and greet that extension with joy and happiness ??? (I WOULD!!!)

A third thing love has to do with is your relationship or in this case lack of relationship with the ONE!!!.We all know Karma is a big fat (female dog) Now How do you know that in chasing that stupid man and getting pregnant by him you are not evading the one true man that should/could/would have been yours if you had just waited? And then instead of a life of publicity, chasing a stupid man for money etc. etc. (basically a life of being pathetic) you could have had a life of peace with a man who truly always wants and wanted to be with you …“Have a baby by me Baby “ sounds like a very ideal situation for any woman truly tired of being an “Independent woman” and I can testify!!! (Don’t worry I don’t live or meet any successful men so boooooooooooooooo I can’t even if I tried lol) but in the long run you are wrecking more than just your life. Children are blessings from God and should NEVER be used as a pawn in your pathetic scheme to get to the top or be comfortable for the rest of your life. You’ve got a brain, a working mind, full use of your faculties USE THAT!!! There are so many people with less doing more!!!...Anyways I hope you get the main point I am making…As Beverly Sills says, “There are no short cuts to any place worth going”…Take your time, do the right thing and PRAY for the right situations!!! In the end you will be blessed for all that you do and who knows you might be the successful person some Ediot wants to “have a baby by”!!!!

Opportunities and Supporters... - Windows Live

Opportunities and Supporters... - Windows Live

I have not yet been blessed with children but in interacting with my friends that have children, the one thing I have come to realize is that it is not a JOKE nor is it EASY! It is through these interactions about their children, talking to them about what to teach the children, what not to teach them etc. etc. that I am continually wowed by how amazing my parents were as parents. Of course they weren't perfect...ok who are we kidding they are 'bloody awesome' lol but seriously now I am older I appreciate even more their parenting skills. I am going to share a couple of tricks they used and give concrete reasons why I believe these aided shape and mold me into the person that I absolutely love that I am. (You love me too...you really really do!)

I want to be an armed robber when I grow up:
“To dream anything that you want to dream. That's the beauty of the human mind. To do anything that you want to do. That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits. That is the courage to succeed. Bernard Edmonds
Why crush your children dreams even as unrealistic as they may seem at the time? Let it grow, in time your child as smart as they are will learn to modify that dream and even if they don't modify it allow them to dream always and to dream BIG! Need I remind you about Obama?
For the longest time ever, my baby brother was convinced he either wanted to be an armed robber or in the military, one or the other but definitely something to do with guns. I can remember us all laughing at him at the time because obviously these two 'ventures' can not even be measured in the same way. One was on the good side (depending on who you ask) and the other was on the bad side (the armed robber of course). But the one thing I remember distinctly is that my parents never tried to take that vision from him. I think ultimately they realized that it wasn't about the violence etc. but rather the dedication and skill and leadership attributes that my brother loved about these two different 'occupations'. This notion was solidified in later years when he finally agreed that he wanted to be the President lol. What is my point with the above? Well unfortunately sometimes Parents in a bid to be the best parents possible and to give one what they feel is the best advantage, push you into a box. Maybe this box will work for you and you will turn out as amazing as they did, but in other situations these boxes or pre cut cookie disks don't work and leave both sides frustrated. The parents feeling disrespected, abused, taken for granted and the children as if nothing they do will be respected. Parents allow your children to dream and make their own mistakes. They learn from them.

Growing up my parents never used the word CANT when it came to anything and infact they encouraged us to try everything at least once. My father could not stand someone dismissing something without trying it to see what exactly about it they did not like. Sometimes I wished they had laid down the "law" no pun intended a bit more and not allowed us to "free base" as much as we did but I love the fact that they allowed us to grow creatively. Growing up if you had said I would be the child studying for a PhD I am sure you would have been laughed out of our house. I was not the smart child I did not get the A's, I talked too much in class, I am sure I was any parents big headache. But by focusing my energies in creative outlets and making sure to never compare me to either of my siblings ( My C's and B's were celebrated as much as my brothers A's lol) my parents pushed me to want more and to work harder towards this "more". Yes my parents arent perfect but in not putting in my a pre cut cookie disk, aka ( As a woman you will do this and that, be married by this age, work in this field, come home at this point in time) they have allowed me to grow, realize my big mistakes (even though they help me correct these mistakes), and be an individual apart from them. In the long run what this individuality has afforded me is the fact that I cannot, rather I do not make a move without consulting them first. See in the end I am doing precisely what any parent wants without the pain and tears lol.

Children are not stupid. They come into this world as a clean slate and it is the responsibility of the people around them to instill and nurture in them everything positive. This is the reason why back home a child is given the name of someone "useful" in society. We want our children to grow up to emulate that individual, to be that individual with a few edits here and there. As I said before, I have not been blessed to have a child (yet) but I think the most important lesson I have learnt from my parents is not to ever kill a child's dream or aspirations. Never say never, if the child wants to grow up to be a lion who flies, then so be it. The world is such a negative place filled with too many you cants, you shouldnt, they wont let you. Do you really want to take away the joy of the freedom to be who or what your child wants to be at such an early age? Don't do it!!!! Enhance your child's creativity, sign them up for a multitude of things, sports, painting, dancing, piano, second language, watch what they excel in and encourage them in it. Trust me when they grow up they will be well rounded and thank you for it. Growing up I don't think I had a second free in my day, while my mates were sitting behind TV screens I was 'hating' my Piano teaching or 'hating' my Math professor (who I should technically still hate because till today I cant do Maths to save my life) lol. Yes it seemed a lot and I hated being so busy but guess what...my ass was in bed sleeping at 8 everynight without my parents begging and pleading lol. Those smart parents!!!! lol

My big lesson here is simply this...encourage your children and any children you know always. Inspire them with your actions and never kill their dreams. There are many more Obama's out there that can grow to fulfill their ultimate purpose if You and I teach them never to embrace the word CANT!!!

“Excellence can be obtained if you: ...care more than others think is wise; ...risk more than others think is safe;.. dream more than others think is practical; ...expect more than others think is possible.”

Oldie but Goodie 2 - Windows Live

Oldie but Goodie 2 - Windows Live

Ganked from one of my Facebook "thoughts"

I heard her ask:
So what the deal here? Tell me what I’m doing wrong. Ok I am young, “they” say I’m pretty enough (whatever that means these days), I own my own stuff, you know the usual, my cute apartment, my cute “It” car, I make enough bank, paper, loot…yadda yadda, I mean you would call me a “successful” woman.

Sooooooooooo ……why am I single?

I look around and see all my mates coupled up with their so called perfect “man” and I wonder where mine is? Or maybe HE is never coming? I want to blame so many people for this lack of men, maybe the Gays took all the good ones, maybe I passed my Mr. Perfect on this road to where I am , maybe maybe maybe and maybe gets me nothing.

No man, (at this point I would settle for a work in progress over a perfect man any day), No warm hugs to come to, no sweet caresses, no random flowers for just being me, no no no …NO-thing!
Now …Wait! Wait! Wait!!!!…before you say anything let me say that I am not picky…. ( I really and truly am not) I have done the dating thing and short of going on E-harmony I don’t think I can do it anymore. I am sick and tired of being with thugs, sick and tired of being with the wannabees and sick and tired of being with men (maybe even men like …).

So I ask you…Is there no sane, single, heterosexual, intellectual, God fearing (oh no... there I go again making lists, guys don’t like lists right? Ugh! but can you blame me?)hmmmm… So what do I use to judge? WHAT you mean I should have no morals? No yardstick? Let me get this straight…what you are saying is to accept the first man that looks at me long enough and be pleased that I at least have someone to call mine? AND? He might not necessarily be only mine? I have to share him with others? Hmmm let me think about that for a minute …(tick tock time goes on while I ponder)…

So in other words, what you are saying is that I cannot find a decent man who puts others above himself, is not afraid to show his sensitive side when the time calls for it, believes in something bigger than himself, a hard worker who is not afraid to treat me like the true woman I am and appreciate everything I can bring to the table? A man who knows money does not make him and that he makes the money. A man who knows that even though there’s only a letter difference between CLass and CRass he personifies the very example of class consistently. A man who is never afraid to speak his mind or let me speak mine because he is secure enough in himself to appreciate an alternative point of view …a man a man a man … a man like that for me!

Oh NO! Why are you looking at me in that way? Did I say something wrong? Oh there I go again it seems when it comes to men I am always DOING the wrong things, SAYING the wrong things, maybe BEING the wrong….Nahh THAT most certainly cannot be!…I am an educated, open minded, fun and empowered female who respects herself and the true men around her. I believe in my God and live my life in a way to please him constantly. I strive to make myself better everyday not only for my benefit but for the Man I will be blessed to call mine (and only mine ) one day…but until then…

What CAN I do? What SHOULD I DO? …now speak…

Who or What is Love? - Windows Live

Who or What is Love? - Windows Live

1 Corinthians
Chapter 13

1

If I speak in human and angelic tongues but do not have love, I am a resounding gong or a clashing cymbal.

2

And if I have the gift of prophecy and comprehend all mysteries and all knowledge; if I have all faith so as to move mountains but do not have love, I am nothing.

3

If I give away everything I own, and if I hand my body over so that I may boast but do not have love, I gain nothing.

4

Love is patient, love is kind. It is not jealous, (love) is not pompous, it is not inflated,

5

it is not rude, it does not seek its own interests, it is not quick-tempered, it does not brood over injury,

6

it does not rejoice over wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth.

7

It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8

Love never fails. If there are prophecies, they will be brought to nothing; if tongues, they will cease; if knowledge, it will be brought to nothing.

9

For we know partially and we prophesy partially,

10

but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away.

11

When I was a child, I used to talk as a child, think as a child, reason as a child; when I became a man, I put aside childish things.

12

At present we see indistinctly, as in a mirror, but then face to face. At present I know partially; then I shall know fully, as I am fully known.

13

So faith, hope, love remain, these three; but the greatest of these is love.